Disgustingly Me

I cudn't sleep last night, I slept at 4a.m.. Not bcos I read Goosebumps n freaked out myself, it's not that scary, I know. It's bcos of something that bugged me, a feelin' that I don't really wanna feel these days.

Okay, I was overslept. Got class at 7:30 and I woke up at 7 cuz I didn't hear my alarm that should've woken me up at 6. I decided to attend my Photography class.

Jumped off the bed.

Looked at myself thru a pretty big mirror. Big for me but not for my sister that loves to adore herself.

Brushed my teeth.

Changed my T-shirt to another lousy T-shirt.

Put on my army baggy pants.

Sprayed my Bvlgari Extreme a lot cuz I didn't take a shower.

Rode my car.

Turn the music on.

*Baby Love - Nicole Scherzinger*

"I'm sorry, Nicole. I love U n ur songs like I love hot chocolate in the morning. But skip ur song this time, okay?"

I walked the hallway, like a total zombie with half wide eyed, dragged my feet lazily.

My class was boring, theory of photography.

The lecture made some jokes almost in every slide that showed. I didn't find it funny, didn't even put a smile on my face. Hey! The others were laughing. Okay, maybe I'm the weirdo.

I was feelin' really uncomfortable with myself.

Oily hair, sticky skin, sweat all over my body.

Class dismissed.

No chit chat after class, I drove home.

Finally I took a shower, like I've never got a shower for weeks, fresh like never b4. Too much!

Now here I am, typing this...

GeJe

Pengen nulis, banyak yg gw rasain. Tp males ngerangkai kata2 dan ngetiknya.

Pemalas & Angin2an

Gw banget dan gw heran deh... Pengen bisa rajin trus menguasi sesuatu dengan maksimal.

Kapan hari ada yang pernah blg ke gw katanya gw ini aneh, oke gw bisa Bhs Indonesia, Sunda, Jawa, Banjar, English, Mandarin, tapi gak ada yg jago, cuma tau sak umprit2 doang...

Fave activity gw pun suka berubah2:

1. Skating, pas SD gw punya skateboard warna orange, mini gtu, tp gapaham mainnya. So tuh skateboard gw pake buat main mobil-mobilan. Trus SMA gw beli yg ukuran standard sktar 200rban. Abal2 tuh kyknya. Then pas gw kuliah ini gw beli yg Urban, 650rb. Menurut gw itu harga yang mahal untuk sebuah papan dengan roda!!! Tp knapa gw beli ya? Sampe sekarang gw ga bisa flip, boro2 ngeflip, loncat aja gak bisa. Gw cm bisa nge-flip telur goreng di atas teflon (dan gw ngrasa hebat bgt)! Kapan hari di kampus gw ada 2 org bawa skateboard gtu maen2 di blakang kampus, skateboard nya udah baret2 gtu gara2 dipake buat... Apa sih namanya yg ngesot gtu...? Dalem ati gw mikir, skate gw mo gw besetin pke piso biar kesannya gw bisa ngesot juga!

2. Oke gw gagal dlm skating, akhirnya gw pilih yg lebih mudah dan murah, juga tak berisiko bokong sakit. FINGERBOARD! Gw beli Tech Deck dan gw juga gak bisa maennya! Ternyata sulit bangetttt!

3. Pas SMP gw ikut ekskul olahraga basket, not bad lah walopun posisi gw jadi forward, ga mampu jd center karena gw terlalu pendek dan ga mampu jadi guard karena gw sama bola masih gedean bola, coach nya takut gw ga bisa jaga bola. Forward lah gw akhirnya krn gw kecil gampang nyolong bola. Dari SMP itu gw pengen punya ring basket dan bola basket sendiri di rumah, tp cuma dikasi bola nya aja. Alhamdulillah lah! Bday gw maren gw dikasi nyokap ma adek gw ring basket sama bolanya dong. Itupun baru 2x gw maenin.

4. SD gw tiap minggu pergi renang sm sodara gw ma bokap gw, kdg sm nyokap gw sbg "penunggu". So kami tiga2nya bisa renang lah. Adek gw smp skg demen bgt renang sedangkan gw skg boro2 punya baju renang. Oh pleez! Baju renang kan ketat2, gak PeDe gw pakenya! Tar dikira ada lemak ngambang. Biar ability gw renang setop sampe sini aja toh kyknya ga mgkn gw jadi juara renang. Nanti aja kl tiba2 ada seseorang yang terjatuh di laut, gak bisa renang, dan mulai tenggelam, trus gw sok2an jadi superhero nyelamatin tu orang [ada jg bisa2 kamar jenazah dimasuki 2 jenazah baru].

5. Gw tertarik sama hacking, belajar dari temen ngmgin java script dsb... TITIK! CUKUP! Gw gak mau lanjutin!

A Nice Piece Of Writing

- Nice piece of writing I've found and would like to share =)

I got no hinges but a door

I’ve laid the tiles, on a not so solid floor

I’ve got hard but no core

I’m the shiny rims on a car with no engine

I’m a beautiful house you don’t wanna live in

I’m a body with no soul

Deficient never whole

I’ve no love yet you adore me, I can turn something wonderful into something so cold

Like a mother and child killed while on a midday stroll

Like an innocent boy that lied and stole over sneakers he thought were so cold

I entice the wealthy to fight over status and place

The chaste to give up in a moment of haste

The patient to run a marathon like a race

Turn a truly noble man into a disgrace

Persuade the blessed to deny Allah’s grace

I trick millions to watch men running after a ball, discarding the Prayer Callers Call

In moderation I might be enjoyed, too much I make you my slave toy

If you ignore me I seek you out

If feigned for I’ll turn you about

I give a little, and take a lot

As soon as you think I’m so great, I end, abrupt..

Never to return, don’t blame me, you were corrupt

Everything you did here was recorded

Your actions in front of all will be reported

I don’t last, prepare to be deported

To the one you came from, alone and unsupported

I am the Dunya, I am worldliness, I am materialism

I am what I am

I’ll never be loyal to anyone, and I am a test for everyone

I am your test... So ask your self...

Will you fail or will you pass?

Thank's to Novita Alfinuri for sharing

(http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=486988494672)

Ngomong Sendiri. Nanya sendiri, jawab sendiri! Salah Satu Hobby Saya!

Uhuy! Bsk gw bday!

Not that happy actually...

Ntah tanggalan gw di blog ini bener pa kagak.

I'm not feelin' really well sih, mentally...

Banyak duka stahunan ini, suka nya jg banyak sih...

Balanced mungkin ya...

Tp boleh gak sih gw hepiiii trus stahun penuh? Hehe... Plis ya, Tuhan!

Tp tahun dpannya jgn duka smua, taun dpn ksi suka 90% duka 10%.

Sak karepe dewe gw yak!

Tp terimakasih, Tuhan, buat setahun ini, at least ada 1 mata kuliah dapet A dlm stahun.

[kebayang dodolnya gw di kampus]

Boleh bikin wish list bbrp jam sblm bday gak?

Oh, boleh... Baiklah...

First of all, saya pgn cepet lulus, bisa kerja, nafkahin anak istri... [lho?!]

Ga deng, pgn cpt lulus, dpt krjaan OK, sukur2 bisa S2.

Utk skg sih sebenernya cuma satu itu wishnya, since it's pretty buggin' me, mpe lupa sama wish2 lainnya.

Bukan wish list dong kl cm 1?

Ya ttp wish list yg laen nyusul kapan2 dalem ati ato ps doa mo bobok.

Knp sih biasanya org pas bday dsuruh make a wish? Emg psti dikabulin ya? Ato ga boleh wishing gtu kl ga bday?

Nah... Dapet 1 lg wish...

Semoga saya bisa mendapatkan semua jawaban atas semua pertanyaan! Dewoooo guweeee!

Biar pas ujian bisa jawab smua dan bener, trus A smua!

Mane adeeee org dpt A cm dg ngarep doaaang???

Sebenernya first question yang pgn gw tau jawabannya adalah:

Kenapa Circle K yg buka 24jam di pintunya ada lubang kuncinya?

Katanya buka 24jam, kl ada lubang kunci brarti ada kemungkinan dikunci kan?

Dan gw ga pernah liat lubang kunci Circle K karatan saking ga pernah dipake.

Slow Sync 2nd Curtain

Camera: Canon EOS 1000D

Lens: Kit

F: 5.6

S: BULB

ISO: 200

Additional: Softbox, tripod

Location: Studio UK Petra Sby

Model: Yovita Renny

Ehm... Ini salah satu teknik yang gw dapet dari jurusan gw, namenye Slow Synchro. Mgkn gak asing buat photographer, tp td gw ngrasa keren bisa moto kyk gini. Wakakak!

Caranya?

Si model bediri aje di sono, kamera uda diset kyk yg uda gw jelasin di atas, mau AF boleh, tp kl uda fokus set ke MF soalnya abis itu lampu dimatiin, kl AF trus ntar fokusnya brubah2 GJ.

Kl uda fokus, matiin lampunya. [kl pas nyetting lampu uda mati takutnya ada yg kesandung softbox, mamfus ente ngganti softbox kampus seharga 8jt]

Jepret tuh kamera, tp jgn dilepas, trs si tukang gambar [bukan tkg jepret] bawa senter ke blakang model, gambar2 lah sesuka hati. Cahaya dari senter itu yg ditangkap kamera jadi garis putih. Trus si tukang gambar ngumpet lagi jgn ada di range yg kejepret. Kl si tkg gambar uda kelar, baru lepas jepretannya.

Pas kamera diteken, flash softbox nyala, pas dilepas kagak nyala sih...

GJ ya gw?

Jadi ada 4 orang yg berperan dlm pembuatan foto ini:

-Tkg jepret

-Tkg lampu

-Tkg gambar

-Model

Gw tkg apa? Tukang nonton aja gw... Gak siy, gw tukang gambar...

Pantes jelek!

Setting f, s, ISO, dll, bisa divariasiin sendiri. Yang penting, keadaan harus gelap. Td gw coba2 sendiri di rumah pke flash internal bisa kok, tp range ga bisa jauh2. Speed sih kayaknya cuma utk kasi waktu utk si tukang gambar, jadi kl mo moto sendiri tp ga ada model dan ga ada tkg gambar bisa2 aja. Set self timer, set s nya dikira2 aja [kira2 bisa nyelesein gambar pke flash light itu brp detik], f jg menyesuaikan sajalah.

Cheers,

Fe

Photo & Photography

Camera: Canon EOS 450D

Lens: Canon EFS 70-200mm f/4 L IS

Location: Juanda International Airport

Camera: Canon EOS 450D

Lens: Canon EFS 70-200mm f/4 L IS

Location: House Of Sampoerna

Camera: Canon EOS 450D

Lens: Canon 18-55mm IS [kit]

Location: Sydney, NSW, Australia

Ehm... Suddenly ada tmn nanya "Fe, kl km moto gtu

tarifnya brapa?".

It's like "Wha? Salah

orang ya?", tp td dia nyebut

nama

gw... Brarti maksudnya gw gitu???

Aga merasa flattered juga sih ada yg nanya gitu, krn liat poto2 FB gw mungkin? Ah prasaan biasa aja foto2nya. Tapi... Tapi... Tapi kan... Emm... Gw ga PeDe moto by request

gitu!

*blushing*

Belom staon blajar photography di kampus, mencet2 msh glagapan, cari tombol ISO aja msh kudu pelototin kamera dulu, pke flash external manual aja ngaco abis.

Ah merendah...

Ah enggak, emg rendah kok..

Msh ngerasa aneh dengan hasil2 foto2ku...

Kok terlalu kuning ya?

Kok agak merah ya?

Kok kurang kontras ya?

Kok blur ya?

Soalnya gak fokus, dodol!

Emg bener kata dosen gw, kebanyakan photographer suka close up, karena BG cm sktar 10%, means gak susah sesuaikan BG, dll.